I went into this psychedelic journey as I had the many other journeys I always have; with a sense of incredible responsibility, respect, intention and oversight. I started using mushrooms and MDMA as a medicinal tool for my CPTSD a few years prior to this experience. There was never an air of recklessness, haste or … Read more
July 26th, 2019, dawned with the promise of a perfect summer day. The sun hung high in the sky, casting its brilliant rays over the coastline, as if nature itself conspired to create a memorable experience. That day, I decided to head to the beach with two of my dearest friends, Sarah and Michael. The … Read more
I had been admitted to the hospital on December 25, 2010 for what I assumed was renal failure due to previous history of cervical cancer. The tumor was sitting on the urethra and was blocking the passage of urine. I had a urinary stent in place. Previous to that, I had the right and left … Read more
I got sick with appendicitis back when I was 8 years old. This was just like the little boy who helped his father write ‘Heaven Is Real’ only mine happened back in 1963. It was just a month or so before JFK was assassinated. I remember getting sick at the dinner table after playing outside … Read more
I was eighteen years of age, decent, tough and innocent to the ways of the world. I was in the city one night and encountered a gang of twenty or more knife-wielding thugs who wished me serious harm. I fought them off as best I could but with the odds being so overwhelming, I had … Read more
I was riding my bicycle home with friends when I flipped over the handlebars and landed on my head. (I do not remember the incident or what I was doing immediately prior. I think we were playing in the schoolyard, about 1/4 mile from my home.) A neighbor picked me up and carried me home-less … Read more
In mid-September 2010, my friend Amanda from high school died at age 20 after a speeding drunk driver hit her while she was riding her bicycle; he hit her so hard that she flew 200 feet (~60.96 m). Upon hearing about her death, I was completely shocked. I could not pay attention in class. Time … Read more
I grew up under very challenging circumstances in an alcoholic home where I felt emotionally neglected. My brother, who was 10 years older than I, was instrumental in my upbringing. He was a kind, generous, funny and nurturing person. I was very close to him throughout my life. He was my whole sense of identity, … Read more
It was on a summer evening outside a neighborhood bar, where all the youth met for the evening. The event happened following a discussion about the possibility to put somebody to sleep in squeezing his rib cage. Thee were four of us. The first friend tried it without any results. Then came my turn and … Read more