Cynthia N.

I was at a point in my life where I ended up in drugs. This was very odd for me because I have never had an addictive personality. As soon as I realized I was having a problem, I quit and moved to another state to keep myself away from the source.

I had been awake for 7 nights and 8 days. I was an artist and the benders allowed me to become incredibly artistic. I finally talked myself into going to sleep. It was very dark in the room. Although it was daytime, we had blackout curtains for this very reason.

The next thing I know there are two very large figures hovering around me. They clearly had huge wings. The figures were hazy with no visible apparent features. As soon as they appeared, I felt an ease so powerful, relaxing and calming, that I couldn’t even speak. One angel came behind me and wrapped their body and wings around me. I remember thinking that I didn’t want to die, but I didn’t want them to go either. I have never felt this loved and at peace.

The next thing I know, my husband was at the bottom of the bed shaking my foot. He was repeating my name as though he were deeply worried. I was too tired to stay awake, so I immediately fell back asleep. When I finally awoke, he said that he came in and I was pale as a ghost. My lips were blue and I wasn’t breathing for at least the minute. He was checking on me.

I am no longer afraid of death. I am afraid of not having enough time on earth to do everything I want to do, but definitely not afraid of dying.