I had a profound near death experience 41 years ago when I was age 19. I am now 60. I was a street kid who had been pushed out of home. I’d had lots of bad experiences as a child and there was nobody I could turn to. I was slipping further into bad company. The life I was leading was going nowhere except downhill. I could see no way forward and I felt hopeless. I was in so much emotional pain that I had to do something to end my nightmare, so I attempted suicide.
I heard a loud bang as if heavy doors were slamming shut behind me and I felt such a great sense of relief. Then I felt I was bubbles, popping like effervescence in lemonade, and I was stretching for millions of miles. The further I stretched, the less bubbling I felt. I went on forever. I would compare it to being like I was a raindrop returning to and becoming conscious of the fullness and expanse of the ocean only on a much larger scale. Love was all around, peace, and blissful-joy. I felt myself moving forward and after travelling faster than light. I thought, ‘This is further than our galaxy!’ I questioned, ‘How come I don’t feel afraid?’ I went to look at my stomach where I expected to feel fear but I saw nothing and it didn’t matter. I continued to move forward, in this amazing peace, joy and love at increasing speed.
Then suddenly in my mind and every single cell in my being, I went through this explosive, orgasmic, glorious intelligence and power. It was astounding; words cannot describe the beauty, glory and power of that intelligence, energy and bliss. Moving through that into a place where the love was so magnified was awesome. I heard the sound of singing. It was unimaginably beautiful. There were no words or voices, but musical tones that sounded like angels singing. I moved past crowds of beings so fast, I couldn’t see anyone clearly. I just heard the sound of moving past assemblies of energy people. Then there was a flash of quiet space, more crowds of people, then quiet again. This happened rapidly and repeatedly. I was whizzing by so fast that all I could hear was what sounded like low, mumbled voices.
In a split second I came to a place where there were lots of rainbows. I saw an energy-person express shock as it realize I was arriving. Then it was as if I was in a spiral or vortex, twisting downwards for 3 turns. I heard a deep, prolonged voice say, ‘TEACH’ only it sounded like ‘t-e-e-e-a-a-a-c-c-c-h-h-h…’.
A week later, I awoke in hospital. I believe I was shown my true identity in Spirit, moving through perfect love to go through Divine and Holy intelligence and power. I had no fear. It is our brain that engenders fear through our thoughts, like we are biological computers. Heaven is real. The things that are eternal are the only real things; like love, peace, and joy. It was an awesome experience. I was returned to my body with a divine purpose ‘to teach’. Sixteen years later with my three autistic sons and my marriage braking up, I studied to become a teacher and have never looked back! My 3 sons’ behavior was crazy and they each spent a lot of times in juvenile detention centers. They are still abusive towards me but I distance myself from them. I have had some amazing adventures teaching.
Bringing up my sons on my own was very difficult but the knowledge of spiritual life gave me strength to persevere. I learned about unconditional love and self-preservation. When they left home, I taught Australian Aboriginal kids, in far north South Australia and on Indigenous communities. I continue to teach how our thoughts lead to our feelings which determine our behavior. I also teach kids how to replace their negative thoughts with positive ones and have had numerous difficult students change their behaviors for the better. I was also prompted, niggled and persistently pushed by an inner voice to continue to study and now have several degrees; Masters in Educational Psychology and post graduate certificates for gifted education, and neuroscience learning. I am now an Aboriginal Education Teacher in the metropolitan area but my journeys have given me great insight into Indigenous culture so that I can be effective in my work. I have a great sense of spiritual belonging and know that life in the physical is only temporary, like a spot in eternity, and I will return to Heaven, which is my home. Such peace, joy and love in Spirit are immeasurable and I feel so blessed to have had that experience.